I have been spending a lot of time recently thinking about where I want this blog to go.
I love that I’ve had the opportunity to know and work with so many amazing folks.
Not to mention the community that has been created through common experiences and shared interests.
(Which reminds me – don’t forget our Nutellaholics Club meeting is next Tuesday.)
Bottom line is, this move has really been a challenge for our family -
Mostly because I have struggled with keeping a positive perspective and motivation.
Each time my husband has deployed, I focused solely on our family – but this past year while Seth was in Afghanistan, I spent more than I had on my community. I tried to treat others with the same giving, encouraging spirit that I had been mentored with during the first few years I became a Military Spouse – but instead of being met with praise, I received hurtful criticism from some folks I respected and thought very highly of.
It has left me feeling very hesitant to volunteer in our new military community.
In direct contrast, I am completely thrilled with our new house. I want to spend all of my time outside gardening and dreaming of things to plant next year. Which although digging in the dirt is wonderful therapy, it isn’t always conducive to getting the everyday chores completed like dishes and laundry done.
My husband’s new job isn’t on a set schedule. And although I am thankful he isn’t deployed, it makes family life completely frustrating. I can’t plan on him being home at a certain time for dinner. I can’t plan on having him home on the weekend to do projects or take trips as a family. So do I plan trips and activities and just hope he has off? I find myself in a ‘deployment mode’ of sorts and it’s beyond frustrating.
Oh and that deployment issue? Not completely off the table.
There was a request for volunteers a few weeks ago.
Yeah. My heart skipped two beats when he told me about it.
And so, I find myself at a crossroads. Struggling to find a balance.
Wanting to write about it all and cautious that I’ll be met with ignorance.
Wanting to maintain a positive perspective and yet coping with so many challenges.
So here is my question for all of you.
What are YOU struggling with. Right now.
Let’s take a deep breath together.
And move forward into a new day.